I was sitting in full school assembly today, right at the back so I had a long time to think, I just looked around at the 1000 students or so, obviously the eldest of most of them. Life’s changed, high school is not important anymore, it’s not most of life, those people who I call my friends I probably won’t see ever again, the ‘popular’ kids are not all that ‘popular’ anymore, basically no-one gives a shit! well, I don’t anyway. College I hope will be different, maybe I’ll gain some independence soon.

I was also watching blood diamond in school and again it made me think-’what is the world?’ we’re all just stuck here in our houses and so-called families and friends, stuck with you. People have really hard lives but you just don’t realise that, when you do it’s usually too late. What is education? you don’t really need it to live this life, it’ll just take up most of life but I’ll still go ahead with it, most people do.

Don’t get me wrong: I’m not feeling all lonely or depressed, coz I’m really not, also not in denial. I love this life, my friends and family but I’ve just been thinking, maybe I shouldn’t again, think that is.