so, I’ve got 13 weeks till my exams and on top of that I have to pay, like £50 quid for the resits, which I’m not happy about, as I kinda got bullied by a teacher to do one, not naming any names *cough*mr jones*cough*!!agghhh.

I’m seriously scared as I’m taking all of last years Chemistry again, although I don’t think I did that bad, but hey what can you do??

Also, do you guys like my new sidebar?? I’ve changed a few pictures..I don’t really like all of them but I can’t be bothered finding really good ones and THEN adding all that html stuff to make sure it’s the right width and length…

btw, does anyone else watch Merlin, which is the first picture on the sidebar, I know it’s a childreny programme and everything but it’s really good, no matter what Boba says! I won’t give up my love for Merlin, come what may ahh, Blood diamond and kite runner, both brilliant movies and must sees, they are the only films I’ve watched that have truely got to me. brilliant!

Ciao

Ever since I can remember, my big sis-Aapa has always been there, one way or another; either by the huge mess she leaves behind her wherever she goes or by that annoying laugh, or even the non-stop arguments she used to have with my mum. Both of them feel the need to be right and then tell the other one that they are either stupid or ‘dont know what the hell they are talking about’!

I also saw old home videos, where she has them ginormous glasses on, and we laugh at her and say how ridiculous she looks, apparently my dad said that those were the best glasses ever.( Probably because he wore the same style ones!) she also seems to be making Kebabs in the home videos, God, what a rowdy lot we are and were. So you kind of get where I’m coming from here, she was the typical big sister who you spent your childhood with and then suddenly you grow up and she becomes kind of annoying, but you totally get where she’s coming from.

She got married 5 years ago, good times for her and the rest of us..somehow she stayed with us all that time, which seems like a huge amount of time, but for both us time flew by. A few months ago she got the news that her visa had come through and she would be leaving along with Faizaan who is about 8 months now, I could tell that when she got that news she was quite close to tears and really upset. But you know, that’s the way life goes and we all excepted it. She spent Eid day with us, where we had much fun and a few days later she was gone.

It’s then you realise how quiet the house is without them, don’t get me wrong there’s still like eight of us, but when you come from a huge family one person, or two in this case, make all the difference. My mum keeps quite most of the time, is always saying how much she misses her, just not to her face, personally I think she misses the arguments they used to have. I miss her, just for the talks and of course the gorgeous kid she had, not forgetting the money. What I’m trying to say is that we all miss her for our individual reasons, mainly because she affected our lives in different ways…but she has her new life in Amrica now and good luck to her!

(it just sucks that she and F are sooo far away, on the plus side American summer here I come!)