I am going to Meadowhall tomorrow, for the whole day with my friends and I am not coming back until it is very very late and very very dark!

Right now , things have got a bit too much, I seriously do feel down…mainly because I found out my parents couldn’t care less about us. THE PRESSURE is absolutley enormous, from all sides..esp things I don’t want to even think about *(Marriage!!). it literally makes me ill.

so, I’ve got 13 weeks till my exams and on top of that I have to pay, like £50 quid for the resits, which I’m not happy about, as I kinda got bullied by a teacher to do one, not naming any names *cough*mr jones*cough*!!agghhh.

I’m seriously scared as I’m taking all of last years Chemistry again, although I don’t think I did that bad, but hey what can you do??

Also, do you guys like my new sidebar?? I’ve changed a few pictures..I don’t really like all of them but I can’t be bothered finding really good ones and THEN adding all that html stuff to make sure it’s the right width and length…

btw, does anyone else watch Merlin, which is the first picture on the sidebar, I know it’s a childreny programme and everything but it’s really good, no matter what Boba says! I won’t give up my love for Merlin, come what may ahh, Blood diamond and kite runner, both brilliant movies and must sees, they are the only films I’ve watched that have truely got to me. brilliant!

Ciao

Ever since I can remember, my big sis-Aapa has always been there, one way or another; either by the huge mess she leaves behind her wherever she goes or by that annoying laugh, or even the non-stop arguments she used to have with my mum. Both of them feel the need to be right and then tell the other one that they are either stupid or ‘dont know what the hell they are talking about’!

I also saw old home videos, where she has them ginormous glasses on, and we laugh at her and say how ridiculous she looks, apparently my dad said that those were the best glasses ever.( Probably because he wore the same style ones!) she also seems to be making Kebabs in the home videos, God, what a rowdy lot we are and were. So you kind of get where I’m coming from here, she was the typical big sister who you spent your childhood with and then suddenly you grow up and she becomes kind of annoying, but you totally get where she’s coming from.

She got married 5 years ago, good times for her and the rest of us..somehow she stayed with us all that time, which seems like a huge amount of time, but for both us time flew by. A few months ago she got the news that her visa had come through and she would be leaving along with Faizaan who is about 8 months now, I could tell that when she got that news she was quite close to tears and really upset. But you know, that’s the way life goes and we all excepted it. She spent Eid day with us, where we had much fun and a few days later she was gone.

It’s then you realise how quiet the house is without them, don’t get me wrong there’s still like eight of us, but when you come from a huge family one person, or two in this case, make all the difference. My mum keeps quite most of the time, is always saying how much she misses her, just not to her face, personally I think she misses the arguments they used to have. I miss her, just for the talks and of course the gorgeous kid she had, not forgetting the money. What I’m trying to say is that we all miss her for our individual reasons, mainly because she affected our lives in different ways…but she has her new life in Amrica now and good luck to her!

(it just sucks that she and F are sooo far away, on the plus side American summer here I come!)

Yeah so it is that time of the year again. Except that these are the longest rozay that I have ever kept, but they are not too bad as I rarely feel hungry! The twins are keeping them for the first time, except that the BOY seems to complain too much and dreams of all sorts of fatty food which always makes me laugh especially when he rants LOL.

I also got my results for AS level which went ABCD, kinda cool right but not good enough for Medicine!! No matter, I am not that disappointed. Maybe in the future some time… I’ll just be doing optometry instead.

So everyone have a good month and don’t forget to PRAY..for yourselves and for me

The family apart from me that is, were watching this movie, a classic that we tend to watch every year, and this is a favourite…how cute is Rupert Everett…the guy singing the song.

Aw, look at poor Dernot’s face!! Why doesn’t he go with Julia at the end of this film???? This Julia in this film reminds me of the Julia as Anna.NottingHill. But Hugh gets the girl(sorry Boba)!! WHY not here? How’s that even a good ending??

I was at the library the other day, at the end of the day when I was about to read the book, I noticed a bookmark with this poem in it, I showed it to my little  10 year old sister ’wow,it’s brilliant’. I then showed it to Apa who is 27 who commented saying it was ’stupid’.

Tell me what you guys think!

So, the wedding we went to on Sunday was quite horrendous. First I think I should start with the day before, I was quite excited and was telling everyone in the house that we would definitely not be late, as the wedding is in Nottingham and it takes about 2 hours to get there.I made sure that most of the 9 people in my family were sorted, and that their shiny bling-bling clothes were also sorted.

Then Sunday arrives and everyone just lazes around! And in case you were wondering we were 2 hours late! But not that it matters; from what I’ve heard the bride and groom were late anyway. What I really hated was that there were not enough seats to go around, which meant that a lot of people were just standing around doing nothing.People were waiting BEHIND CHAIRS to eat, oh my god how annoying and I do believe I travelled about a quarter a way around the country for you people!! Anyway ’nuff said, officially the worst wedding I’ve been to.

What makes it worse; when I arrive home the auntie across the street asks ‘So, what did the bride look like?’, to which she received a blank look. I had nooo idea what she looked like. I can’t even remember what she was wearing!

So guys what was the worst wedding you have ever been to??